Coming Out - Letting Go (Part 5.4)

...boring times a gazillion...
Mentally blocked, bland, feelingless, fearless whatever equals to boredom...
I have too many and zero things in my mind to write this @#%$^*

even the dog yawns reading my blog...

Anyway, I am going to tell you about my past relationship, I wondered if I'm repeating myself about this in the previous post but never mind, this time I'm just going to brag about my ex and it's the last thing that anybody would want to talk about. *Yawns~~ yeah about my ex-bf not so much of the insignificant other of mine. But he really has significant looks though ^^ well never mind he has weaknesses too, ya know, like BO, short, really smelly feet.

"You have a problem with BO?"

It ended almost 3 years ago...now, once upon a sexless (naive) time...

I was working for an enterprise selling souvenirs and gifts, I was the wrapping guy behind the counter, wrapping stuffs for almost 2 years, well though I was quite content and well-trained with my work at that time, and I had a slimmer bod too, I guessed that helps when I saw guys cruising 'round the shop or accidentally purposely bumped into me asking me to wrap toys or in other words mesmerize them with my skills, I probably wrap them up in a box too ^^

Not really the kind of wrapping you get in Jaya Jusco or metrojaya or even from Bodyshop, what I used to do was unique wrapping, I use natural or recycle resources like recycle papers (not old newspaper ok), dried branches, thin papers, cardboards, jute ropes, paper and handmade flowers, a lot of stuffs I made myself...

There's a wrapping I remembered charging RM120++, consisted of a big handmade hard cover box (wrapped in recycle paper), jute ropes shredded, some exquisite wrappers and on top of the box cover I made some deco, a miniature christmas tree on a papermade-hill, lace sided golden ribbon matched with green and red fabric type ribbon, with some christmas corn and some snow spray as the finishing touch. But all these compared to the present he brought, it's just 10% of what I charged, it's the product of SK II worth almost RM2k. How I wished I was the receiver.

Well, coming back to the main story, how we met...at the first place, I remembered.

One fine Saturday morning almost noon, 2 decent guys came into our shop, looking for gifts, as usual, I was gossiping with my girl colleague, "Mie, who would you go for? The sunshine type or the blue collar type huh?" I asked her. "Whoever comes first lor..." replied Simply Tammy. "mmm, I agree with you, but you know me lar, I never approach people one, but I actually would go for the blue collar type, I don't know why lar, but they attracted to me, I think you suit the sunshine type one..." So the conversation went on until the end of the day.

The next day, I was alone, Tammy usually has her off days on Sundays, so as usual I went to the shop almost at noon time to open the the shop. As I just getting things ready I heard the phone rang, picked up and, "Long Summer, can I help you?" I greeted reluctantly. "Ermmm, I'd like to speak to the guy in the shop please." He replied. "I am the only guy here other than my boss, he usually don't come so early." I told him. "Oooh am glad it's you, err I have a friend who is interested in you and ermm he wondered he could get your number..." While he was making it up, "Excuse me, may I know who are you, and you said it's a 'he' right? How does 'he' knows that I am...alright how you got this number?" I insisted. "Oh I was shopping at your shop yesterday and I took the name card on the shelf, so..." He explained. *gotcha! "Oh! It's you that wanted my number? I'm sorry I couldn't do that, very sorry, not when I'm working."

After more than 30 mins of conversation, he finally convinced me to give him my number. "However, you can only call me after 10pm ok, now my bosses' wife just walked in, I gotta go, bye." I hang up. "Waaa~boiiling porridge ar?! Talked so long on the phone!" Ice Queen was interrogating me. "Wh-what? No ar, customer call asking about gifts and wrapping mah~" I murmured. "Okok liao, get back to work liao." She demanded. "Ye-yes, Mame."

I did receive call from the mysterious guy, he's Robin from Robine Kitchen...

Nah, not that, I'll just label him as Teddy, I got so mentally blocked thinking of names, so let's just call him Teddy. lol.

He wanted a meet-up somewhere, near the shop I worked. So I accepted the invitation and decided that we meet up at Starbucks downstairs after work.

That was on the next Sunday after he made his first call. I had actually told Simply Tammy that my dream is actually coming true, after what I was wishing to the stars every night before going to bed. I even told Simply Tammy that I don't deserve this kinda guy, I was not confident, discourage. Wondered why I was chose. "You know I love you" Boy confirmed "Sebab I sexy?" Girl asked. I wondered if I'm really attracted to him, but in which or what way?

I will try to describe his look, ok. Hmmm let me see, thick well grown eye brown, slightly brown-colored big poppy eyes, well-shaved chin but not stubble, clean cut, small pinky lips, very small ears almost hidden, perfect sharp nose not like Caucasian though, short spiky hairstyle, medium build bod, about 170cm tall, 65kg may be, stocky and he's from Kuching. I leave the rest to you guys. ^^

he loves me, he loves me not?

I was half way pulling down the shutter before I finally call it the day and was thinking about meeting Teddy. Someone patted me on my shoulder. "Eh-hem, Hi, am Ted." the gorgeous guy greeted me. I was stunned, petrified, *I hope you know CPR, 'cos you took my breath away~ "Hey, I-er I didn't expect it's you, ehmm..." I can't finish my sentence. "What do you mean?" He asked.

Quickly, I sum up the cashier, punch card and hit the shutter, went down to Starbucks with him. It's totally speechless, I was living in fairyland. Butterflies everywhere. "So..." he began, "...are we hanging out somewhere later?" *oh yeah we are going to heaven and I hope it's you who'd take me there "Err, well not anywhere particularly, it's just going back to my place, you mind?" I answered politely.

We had 8 great sex that night, too many position, too sweaty, and yeah heat and can't even move a dick now. Hugging *although I was feeling hot and uncomfortable, and I smelled something... each other to sleep.

"You're sooo damn good at it..."

He was working in KL that time and I was in Penang. We keep in touch thru smses, never ending online chats, break-time calls and so on, even phone sex. I would say it's so sweet even when I'm drinking bitter gourd juice that time.

You can call me insane or whatever, after 6 months knowing him, I moved down to KL to stay with him, without even knowing what the future holds for the 2 of us. And I ended up working with him for the same company. The company really sucks, with a 10 year establishment and achievements, can't even make it to our neighbour country, it's a software company, messy management, delay pay checks and so on.

After suffering for almost 3 months, I moved back to Penang and asked him to come with me if he still loves me. He followed me back. He, too was looking down, not willing to give up his job, he was discouraged, low confidence, he was 35, kept telling me "Who would want a 35 year old man?"

I took the effort seeking jobs everywhere in the island for him, with his qualification in fashion, experiences in major shopping malls in Singapore as operational director (dept director, GM), I doubted my efforts would go down the drain. When I found some major complexes with some higher position opening, he refused to go for the interview. He wanted to work for some smaller company, the one not so famous or not so favor by local. So, I found GAMA the over-sized grocery store or miniature shopping mall, he went in for the interview, for the position of Supervisor. When the lady in charge was reading his resume, her eyes almost popped out. "I'll ask the GM to interview you immediately, come with me to his office now." the excited lady assured.

I waited him for almost 2 hours, dosed off on the couch at the front counter. How glad I was for him when I saw him walking out of the GM's office, I could see the smiling face and how the dimple formed on the right side of his face. "So, how was it? Did you get it?" I asked anxiously. "Guess what, they're not giving me the job on the poster, but they gave me an Assistant Manager!" He was smiling with all his teeth showing. I have to tell you that I almost jumped on him in front of the receptionist and the others as if I had won lottery or what.

We were eating out and celebrating for our new job, without realising all these were leading us to nowhere but the most painful memory of, perhaps my life.

~End of Part 5.4~