So much of the Channel 5 Queer Guy (in QAF), he might be the perfect or not example of Homosexual VS Queer for me.I was watching it for the 3rd time, not that I have no other DVD / drama to watch, moreover with the Olympic attractions and so on, that I wanted to watch it again, ya know a good story is worth repeating. And you know what, I just learned something and got me to write it here, and how I relate it in my life.
Being someone you're not, trust me I've been through, it's pathetic and hypocrite.
Just like Emmett (in the pic), he was given the job of his lifetime, to be in front of the screen, providing queer tips on how to make your day and so on, well, regardless of what he had already done in the previous season as a website porn star. This was different, it's in front of may be nearly half the States of America. That include the straights, homophobes, religion leaders and even politician. He's refrained from showing his sexuality, showing the true him and that include his brief and tight ass. He's only allowed to provide segments on gardening, cooking, grooming and things that are harmless, not mentally challenged. Viewing certain thing from a different angle. That's it. That's what I would call being queer.
Homosexual is totally the opposite way, it's about showing what we are, that is, freely. it's more challenging, more adventurous, dare to be different, which makes us all the same, whether you're straight, a tranny or drag queen, we are the same as we are all made differently in the face of God, like a family.
Recalled an episode I watched when Michael Novotny delivering a speech on the tragic that he was one of the survivors in the bomb incident. Yes, we all want the same things, some extra money in our pocket, family, marriage, lead a normal happy life even for equal rights. However, we are all different like snowflakes yet inevitably we are still considered snows.
I could admit I'm a bit like Michael too, just wanna get married not necessary to a rich guy, just as long as we love each other like Ben Bruckner and lead a normal happy family life, throw a family party once in awhile, have good and best friends around, sharing sorrows and joys, and yeah my mum could come in and mess our days up. :)
...that would be a dream come true.
I considered myself officially came out when I confessed to my mother that I am gay. She's the only person I ever wish, could accept me the way I am. Finally, she was relieved to hear the news. She didn't get mad or curse, all mothers are the same, she tried to convince me to becoming a straight again, "I'm much happier in this life mom, why should I go back to that miserable life where I hurt myself and even worse I will hurt the girl's heart which couldn't be heal not by time too...". She's speechless awhile.
I assumed she agreed with me and all of a sudden she spoke again, "yeah! Now that I realised, I usually met a lot gay and lesbian customers (she works in a chinese restaurant in Virginia), ya know they're so nice to me, so friendly and bla-bla-blahh..." she continued. "Mom! Enough, I know what you've been through, and I know what's happening in US ok." I explained. "Ok, mom's gonna get back to work, one more thing son, be safe, play safe kay." She insisted "Thanks mom..." I was finally relieved too.
That's how I came out. Now that I have dropped the 'biggest stone' off my shoulder, thank god.
No doubt before that I already came out enjoying myself sleeping and groping around, but this was kinda official and precious memory for me. So, whatcha say? I'm officially gay and queer and single and available and ...etc
~End of Part 5.2~
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